This morning we got up way early to take a train to the Locarno area of Switzlerland. Northern Italy (specifically Lake Como area) is amazing! We saw it from the train as we were headed towards the Locarno area. Switzerland is also a beautiful country with lots of mountains and lakes and rivers and waterfalls. I am proud to be Swiss! However it was raining and overcast all day (not totally bad as we had been burning up the last few weeks). We were headed to the Locarno area to visit the Verzasca Dam made famous by Goldeneye and the most recent season of the Amazing Race (I am huge fans of both, that's why I had the idea). It took us a while to figure out the bus route up to the dam but eventually we figured it out. We arrived cold, hungry and nervous a little past 3:00pm but Mike was stoked to jump. I was on the edge about it (both figuratively and literally) and when I looked over seeing a couple other people jump I was like...this is insane! Mike was still stoked about it so he got harnessed up and then did it! I will let him tell you more about that...
As for me, I just wasn't feeling it today, it was rainy and cold (I could see some fog being blown up over the dam). It had a beautiful view though and I was stoked to see it! However, afterwards I really regretted not jumping... I felt like I failed which is a fear of mine that surpasses my fear of heights...(Biggest fears: Failure, Rejection, Heights). So definitely afterwards I was beating myself up over that...I mean how often do you get such a sweet opportunity. I guess it will just give me a reason to go back and do it sometime (the dam can't win the war!). I think I just needed encouragement...and lots of it! I was definitely humbled by the dam. It's crazy how something so silly as bungee jumping can cut to your core as who you are as a person. For example, Mike is always to one to take more risks of all of us boys. I think it's because Tim and I always made him do things we were too scared to do first. In this case we were too scared to do it at all after we saw him!! But it also made me question myself and why I sit by idly for things that have great rewards. I knew it was perfectly safe to jump (some of you may not believe me...but seriously it looked even safer in person) and that it would be a huge thrill. However, I let my fear get the best of me which is something I HATE to do. As I mentioned before about my fears, if I can't start getting over them then I will end up a jobless (especially in this economy!), lonely (I should make some moves...), and non-bungee jumper (I thought I conquered my fear of heights by skydiving...totally different!) of an old man...and I don't want that!!! So I could definitely use some prayer :) Here's a picture on the dam...I am happy because I saved 120 Euros...
Well we are currently in Interlaken which seems to be the happening place for young people and thrill seekers. All of us are going to go canyoning on Sunday which is basically hiking, swimming, jumping and rapelling down a river and rapids. I think it might actually be more dangerous than bungee jumping but it doesn't feel like it, thus why it will be easier to do!
OK. It is such a good thing that you have looked into yourself and are able to name the fears that control you....that is the first step in facing them!! AND they are not completely bad......it may make you wise and safer from bad choices at other times. I should have been there to urge you on!!!! Can you see Grandad jumping? He does not even go up the Space Needle.
ReplyDeleteSo onward you go and canyoning will allow you to ''jump in' to some new adventure. LOVE NANA